......I SAID I'M SAVED ....HE SAID THAT'S GOOD MAYBE WE COULD GO TO CHURCH SOMETIME......

PART 1

I SAW LOVE IN HIS EYES & STRENGTH SOMETHING DIFFERENT THEN I HAD SEEN IN ANY OF THE MEN I HAD DATED. THE LAST MAN I LOOKED AT LIKE I WAS LOOKING AT HIM WAS MY EX HUSBAND.HE SAID THEY CALL ME LOVE, I SAID THEY CALL ME SUGAR. HE SAID I LOVE SUGAR,,,(we both laughed). I WANTED THIS MAN.... I WANTED HIM 4 ALL THE RIGHT & WRONG REASON'S...
I HAD BEEN CELIBATE FOR ALMOST A YEAR NOW AND KNEW HE WOULD BE THE ONE TO BREAK IT... (CUSS). I SHOULD HAVE RAN, RAN AWAY FROM HIM AS FAST AS I COULD. I WAS LIVING IN A SHELTER, WE BOTH WERE. HE AND I BOTH STARTED PLAYING SPADES WITH ANOTHER COUPLE ALMOST EVERY NIGHT AND ON THE WEEKENDS WE WOULD TAKE THE KIDS OUT AND AT NIGHT WE WOULD JUST CUDDLE. IT WAS LIKE A DREAM. IT FELT GOOD TO BE WITH SOME ONE THAT WAS NOT OUT TO JUST SMASH aka (have sex) 3 WEEKS LATER WE WENT OUT 2 MD TO VISIT OUR FAM, WE HAD STARTED TO LIVE AS IF WE WERE A FAMILY, BUT IT SEEM NATURAL AND IT FELT GOOD. HIS FAMILY WAS SO KIND HIS DAD WAS A MINISTER OF MUSIC AT THE CHURCH... I THOUGHT TO MYSELF THANK YOU GOD I GOT ME A GOOD MAN, I WENT TO VISIT MY FAMILY ALSO IT WAS GREAT IT WAS LIKE EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE WAS PERFECTLY FALLING INTO PLACE... WE WERE STAYING IN A LOCAL HOTEL IN MD, THIS WAS THE FIRST TIME WE HAD NO KIDS... I GOT SCARED CAUSE MY BODY WAS CALLING FOR ATTENTION AND I KNEW THIS TIME I WAS ABOUT TO GET IT. (2 b continued)